Sorry for this post

Sometimes I wonder how I allow myself to fall for something I know isnt true. I feel like a customer of some as seen on TV product. If you know your family well enough why would you allow yourself to think they've changed? I admit I am an optimist but Wow, I can really fall for it sometimes. I would like to think that I can trust and allow myself to depend on my loved ones just for a short while, but NO. I now know that I have my Husband. I have the family that I have created for myself and thats who I need to invest in. My loving husband has tried so hard to take care of me and to keep me happy and he has to be exhausted. Once again Steven I thank you. Everyone else Fuck off... Btw if you havent done anything wrong to me, dont take this personal because I clearly am not talking to you. BUT if you have hurt me in the recent past, Admit to what you've done and then Fuck off. Im tired of the pain...

Now back to the normally cheerful me. ^_^ I just needed to get this off my chest without actually arguing with anyone ^_^

Homeschool?

Last week Steven and I came up with the idea that we want to give our kids a better head start in life. So this Monday along with my new workout routine, I started a somewhat structured day for the "Big kids". Honestly I was pretty excited to bring out all my old things from when I took child development at city college. This first week has been quite an adjustment considering that my whole body is sore and I'm toting Roxy around every step of the way... Coffee anyone? But I must say It seems to be paying off. Zora is doing much better with her shapes, colors and overall communication already. And Steven is just, well... enjoying himself. He was already excelling in most areas except speech. Im enjoying spending my day in the "Classroom" with them. I feel like Im helping them and ultimately getting the break from them that I've been silently hoping for. Because at the end of the day, they seem ready to get the hell away from me. Which doesn't make feel so bad because now the feeling is mutual lol. Also they seem to appreciate when they get to watch Nick Jr. at the end of the day much more. So far it has been puzzles, Bead bracelets, and rock mosaics, to name a few. And tomorrow we're making octopuses and macaroni art along with our regularly scheduled activities. Seriously Ive got to give it to the teachers in the world. Coming up with educational yet FUN activities is no easy task. And sticking to them is no joke when you're tending to a 4 month old as well. Teaching (in this form) is hard work. But so rewarding.

Needless to say Im super excited when Steven comes home for lunch and even more so at the end of the day...

Dv6 1050-US

Dv6 1050US... Why do I know this model number by heart? Well, I researched my notebook for months before buying it. I compared it to a ton of others before I made up my mind, And It has been good to me. It helped me get through my husbands deployment and allowed me to comfortably earn some college credits through my last pregnancy. Now I find myself without it for what has been the longest 38 days ever. All because I tried to "save" it from a fall, grabbed it wrong and cracked the screen... SMH... This experience has helped me to understand A few things about myself

1. I am addicted to the Internet. And not just Facebook, but the whole net. Its much better and helpful than TV. And if there is anything you watch on TV 99.999 % if the time its online too.
2. I miss San Diego really bad
3. I really think that some of these movies about people going too far with technology may actually come true in the near future.
4. I NEED an ipod touch.
5. I will MOST DEF be renewing my service contract.

Now 2 & 4 may sound a little weird but just trying to get to the FedEx location was hard. but also trying to get anything done outside of my home opened my eyes to how conveniently located everything was in SD. And if I had an ipod touch life without my notebook would be a LOT easier. I know I wouldn't be able to play my FB games on it. but I could still search he web in my bed. I would also be free of the thought "Let me try to go to every website I may need to before I go upstairs"... I will never take my notebook for granted again. I have been checking the website for updates keeping in mind that I am NOT their only customer. This is the info I have so far.

Work Order History Date Status Notes 5/6/2010 4:12:34 PM Parts Ordered A part(s) has been ordered for this unit. 5/6/2010 4:10:40 PM Parts Ordered A part(s) has been ordered for this unit. 4/15/2010 8:07:06 AM Repair Your unit has been assigned to a technician for repairs. 4/15/2010 8:07:06 AM Quote Approved Quote Approved 4/15/2010 8:07:02 AM Quote Completed A repair estimate has been prepared for your unit. 4/14/2010 10:29:13 AM Diagnose Your unit has been assigned to a technician for diagnose. 4/14/2010 9:34:01 AM Unit Received This unit has been received.

LONG time no see...

Well sometime between the "What does the future have..." and the "Twilight saga" posts I became pregnant :) Almost a whole year and much madness later, I am now the proud mother of three children. Steven, Zora and Roxy. Now I'm not only adjusting to life in upstate NY, but also to having three munchkins to look after. Through the whole pregnancy I hoped for a boy who I intended on naming Benjamin. But I was absolutely blessed with Miss Roxy. She looks so much like Zora its crazy and so far they act the same. I'm convinced she will allow my husband to see what he missed with Zora while he was in Iraq. At this point I am completely smitten with my family. From my husband to youngest child I am constantly provided with reasons to smile each day. This has has become that moment where I feel like I have made the right choices so far. I have plans for myself for the future and I intend on keeping you updated. Wish me luck.