What does the Future have in store for me??

Life is so crazy and can be so cold. i dont think its safe to be so sure about anything because as soon as you do you get SLAPPED in the face with the reality of how uncertain everything is. and i mean SLAPPED hard! It seems like the duration of any ones life is just a test of strength and faith. its so hard at times. but i guess you'll never know how strong you are until youre tested or what you will be able to or will choose to deal with. Pass the test and add a notch on your belt, fail and be subjected to an emotional explosion. so i guess its cool either way as long as you learn a lesson about yourself when its all said and done. But as of late it has been test after test for me and im losing my mind. I wouldnt mind it so much if i had a break in between. but its all piling up on me. and I dont want to keep going if none of my hard work pays off. hell i might as well be average and just put in 55% like everybody else. Cuz thats all i get credit for. Its just scary when you notice your fuse has been lit but you have no idea how long its been burning or how close the bomb is. i hope i can survive this explosion